Used to be Me

I saw a man striding in the middle of the rain, and chilling wind. Wearing jacket, sling bag and his umbrella. That was about 10 minutes ago, 9pm. Signal #2 of typhoon Lando was hoisted since this morning.

I can relate. Whatever name PAGASA calls the typhoon, off I went to work. Typhoon was not an excuse to be absent. Flood? Bring boots and extra outfit and dry it in the office. Call your supervisor if you might be late. Whatever happens, you have to report to work.

If your migraine strike, take a pill and start talking to customers. No excuse.

It was a tough job.

Today, signal #1 with continuous rain may mean no class, and I get to stay at home. I made my decision, and I am so fine at where I am now.

But the eight years I had with BPO, was amazing. I miss the stress and competition, the people I worked with and argued with. smile emoticon

Kudos to BPO workers.

Shades of Grey

It is not what I thought it was. It's a movie for someone who has experienced love, hurt, hope, deeper pain.. Love.

Each of us has a dark spot and a soft spot. Situations can bring out the best in us or the beast in us.

Anastasia was intrigued; insecure; submissive; dominant- in love.

Christian was insecure; in demand; intriguing; dominant; submissive- in love.

Sometimes we have to put a wall, not to just hide the not-so-pleasant past, but also because we hoped that someone will be brave enough to break that wall and be able to see us, embrace us as as we are.

You have to be willing to be hurt to understand love; and when you're there you'll know when to hit the red button.

She was willing to take it in, to be punished- to assure herself that it's not just about her heart racing. She wanted to understand him, and herself.

There are situations where you have to be someone you're  not just to know yourself better. Even if you know that breaking that wall, entering the shades, may mean both pain and pleasure- you still choose to take it because the person you love is more important than his past.

Trip lang

There's more to life. Indeed.

It depends, I say. There's always more even if you have life. You have this nice bag, you want the other. You have a beautiful marriage, you want more excitement with others.

I had competitions, on a daily even hourly basis and yet I wanted more. But what was 'more' then was to have a life. To sleep like normal people do (Oh, I still thought that what I had was normal)- but you know, sleep at night and work on daylight. So what's 'more' depend on you.

Shoots.. I have so much in mind that none came out of this article that makes sense. See... I think I am 'normal' already. It's past 11pm and so my mind tells me that it's time to tuck in bed. Hum! Tomorrow is another day! When I am supposed to rest and be with my dogs, I gotta be with my work. Who says power just needs responsibility?! Opportunity also comes with responsibility. Akala kasi ni Superman lahat na lang about power. Paano nya ma-exercise power nya kung wala namang opportunity to show it. So while I still can and while I still have that hunger for knowledge and experience, I am going. To plan for the next school year's activity with the bosses is a privilege.

It's been like... I can't remember when was the last time I wrote in my blog. The last attempt was futile- nada! walang nangyari. So even if what I write as of now does not make sense, I will finish it, for a start- again.

Buti na lang ang title ng aking blog is 'My Thoughts' so walang basagan ng trip!