Imperfectly perfect

You can surprise yourself, yes you do! I can hardly resist the thoughts of travel with friends, and for months now I have not an inkling to join any trips with friends except that with my sister next year in Palawan. I smiled at the thought that maturity has sink in.

When you have settled your thoughts on something but the circumstances around are not what suits your goal, then there's stress. Really, I realized that some of the stresses I have had can really be avoided if only I have decided to do as I please. Another thing, I can control my emotions and impulse lately. Oh a lot of things came about lately! Just this morning, from work, we had the chance to talk ( housemates) and surprisingly we share the same observations. So, I am not a 'nega' person at all. Then it flashed my mind, 'Silent water runs deep'. I tried to swim with the waves, against the waves and ended with a decision just to stay afloat and let the waves lead you. But I wasn't born that way, I guess. I find my way. True indeed that when I decide, I just don't consider what is obvious, I weigh things and weigh it seriously. If you don't believe in me, I am not proving anything to anyone but myself. Measure me with what it should be but i will not let you dictate my thoughts and  my life. I cry, and that's when I am dangerous. I keep mum when I have to be decisive but once it gets out of my mouth, I stand firm to it no matter what.

It is not just pressures or stress that can give you the chance to see the real character of a man, it also shows when one is at it's 'moment'. There were things we chose to ignore but dirt is dirt. A man of character decides with his thoughts and heart, otherwise, he uses his mouth and mind only. That's what makes the difference. Oh, it's easy to shut others ideas or thoughts as long as you're ready to own up the responsibility when time comes.

It's factual when you learn from experience but it's more refreshing when you learn how to learn from others.  I have been telling myself to be myself, in a perfect world maybe I can, but I live in an imperfectly perfect world. Did I make sense? I'm trying to look things in different perspectives, as I used to be. That persona has gone when that imperfectly perfect world demanded for quick decisions.