Me? No, God-moment.

Last night's shift was light and full. When was the last time I feel that? I don't know. I don't even know how it happened that way. I found myself laughing and smiling, with sincerity. :) Funny that I have to write that 'sincerity', I know! Forced smiles and shallow laughs are the skills I learned.

To backtrack, I think spending more time with my agents (coaching) was a factor. I only get to focus on how help them improve instead of putting pressures to myself. I have been engrossed with myself, thinking things over. And worse, I just realized it now. Whew! I thought I was cool. No, I know I tried hard to be but I almost collapsed inside. That last team meeting was a relief! Transparency made it easy. And with the pressures ahead of us, we all laughed as a team. That sealed our family.

I talked about profiling, so I might have been successful profiling and re-profiling myself. I know some ideas, I lack follow through. I have ideas on what to do, I didn't do it because of insecurities. I start a thing, I lost determination to do it. No, I don't think I have ADHD. I simply lack courage and focus. I know I have goals but the focus and determination to achieve it was half-fueled. Then, I go back to talking to myself. I have to discuss matters with myself. Me moment? I think I just skipped a lot of God-moments, everything slowly shattered when that began to happen. Bright ideas can only shine when the utmost motive is to glorify Him. You can only do that when you know Him. Knowing Him is spending time with Him. That is the moment I missed.

I thank God for last night's shift. More to come. Thank you Lord for your grace, may You be glorified in my life.